Another 2 weeks down, and some more progress to report in! It’s been an interesting 2 weeks. I had a bit of a slump energy wise during week 4, but I have only missed one workout to so far (which was a cross training work out and not a run). Well, except for tonight, but there’s a reason for that. Kind of related, I also completed my second park run ever and shaved 6mins off my time – wahoo! On the equipment front I’m now parading around with some new shoes.
Let’s take a look. [...]
There’s only one month left to go in the year so it’s a final sprint to finish the list, but I’m really excited at how things are looking right now. Let’s take a look!
What’s left to go:
There’s only 10 (!!!) items left on the list to complete this year. Of that, 4 of them are underway and nearly complete, and the others shouldn’t be too hard to complete. It’s just a matter of making the time!
- Write a blog letter to baby each month (this is my “Luca Letter” series) – I’ve got 2 letters to write, his 11 and 12 month letters.
- Make a photo book for Luca’s first year – this is also underway, hoping to get it finished this weekend.
- Take a family photo – we have photos of us all together, but I have something specific in mind. I want something nice, I don’t want a selfie.
- Accept help when offered as often as possible – this is something that doesn’t have a definite value for which I can measure whether it’s completed or not. I could say that it’s completed because I’ve been working on accepting help, and I have quite a few examples of that throughout the year. But I want to keep reminding myself of this right up until the year is over.
- See a doctor about my veins – booked in for a fortnight away. Recently my friend saw the veins in my ankle and was shocked at how bad they were. It will be interesting to see what the doc has to say.
- Frame/print a photo I’ve taken – still yet to do but quite a few that I want to print. The photo book also technically qualifies for this too.
- Learn how to do makeup – I’ve had a friend show me some techniques briefly, but I’d like to spend just a little bit of time trying out some techniques from online and just improve a bit more (if anyone out there is wonderful with makeup and wants to do a hard lesson with me I’d love it).
- 30 day declutter challenge – I went a bit easier on myself with this one in that it didn’t have to be 30 days in a row. It’s underway though, about 50% of the way through.
- Meditate for 5mins every day for a week – I’ve started this one so many times, and ultimately end up going to bed and forgetting to do it for a night. Going to make time for it this week.
- Have a date night with the husband 12 times (take turns to organise) – we’ve had 11 dedicated date nights for the year already, and the last one is coming up this week. To be clear, this is stuff that’s not just the usual “sit on the couch and watch tv”, it has to be where effort was made to make it feel like a date.
Highlights from what I’ve accomplished this year
There’s been so much that I’ve done this year, and I’ll post a full list at the end of the year, but I wanted to share some highlights.
As I write this post I’m sipping on wine, and reminding myself why I’m posting these photos. I’m almost chanting it to myself.
It’s all part of the journey. You’re just writing about the journey. It’s all part of the journey.
Thing is, it’s bloody hard to post this. I’m not proud of the before photo, or the after photo. I’m not where I want to be. But I’m proud of the difference.
Finding my photos
I was going through photos the other night, trying to put together a photo album of my son’s first 12 months on earth when I stumbled upon my before photos. I had taken them and promptly forgotten about them.
I was disgusted.
Yes, I was overweight, but there was more than that. It was knowing why I was overweight. In that photo I saw a secret binge eater, someone who lacked discipline. It was someone extremely unhealthy and certainly wasn’t prioritising her health.
A recap of the last year
It’s been a big year..
I was diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder, something that threw me for quite a loop mentally. Once it had sunk in, suddenly my health became a lot easier to deal with. I began to learn my triggers and my weaknesses. I could identify when I felt a binge episode coming on. Since I was diagnosed, there’s only one time I can think of that I binged, and even then it was a much lower scale than I used to in the past.
To this day I still message friends when I am struggling. Their support is invaluable. When I go grocery shopping I tell my husband everything I bought, not because he wants to cares, but because I want to be accountable.
The other day I had insatiable cravings for chocolate. I knew that if I went into the grocery store I would relapse. I would adopt the all-too familiar zombie state, and before I knew it would be in the confectionary aisle loading up. So I avoided the store altogether.
I’ve been using Lite n Easy to lose weight. I’ve removed the decision making for myself from food. It’s not a long term solution but it’s the solution for me right now.
It’s all working.
2017 vs 2018
I just had another sip of wine (or three). I need a refill.
The biggest changes are visible on the side view. My bubble bum has decreased, as has my stomach. I’ve also lost a lot in the chest area, which to me isn’t such a bad thing since I enjoy running and a smaller chest makes it a lot more comfortable to run.
On the front I’m starting to get a bit of stomach definition back. I still have a pouch to get rid of, but it doesn’t overhang my underwear anymore. I still remember messaging a friend excitedly the day I could see my c-section scar in the mirror without sucking in my gut.
I tried to wear the same underwear but I think I chose a different pair; the shape is a little misleading on the rear shot I think. The shape around my butt has changed. I took these photos this morning and it was still a little dark, hence the shadow from the lights. It’s made it harder to tell but my midsection has changed, and my rolls are smaller. I call them my back boobs. I’ll be glad when they’re gone.
What’s the plan for 2019?
Maybe I should commit to another photo, I’m not sure yet. But the goal is to hit my goal weight, and right now that’s looking like it should happen around March.
Here’s a crazy fact. There’s 15kg difference in those images and I still have 15kg to goal weight. I’m only half way. Imagine when I get there, and the changes between 2017 and 2019?
I can’t wait.
Because in 2019 that will be a girl that is healthy. That has been disciplined. That has done the hard yards and kept the eating disorder demon at bay. That is a healthy weight, fit, and setting a good example for her child.
I’m already becoming that person. I will stay that person.
I’m not there yet, but I’m starting to feel proud of myself again.
I’m 3 weeks into my training, 24 weeks left in my training plan and 37 weeks left until the half marathon.
The first few weeks have been good to give me a bit of an introduction of what’s to come. I’ve also been able to get an idea of what works and doesn’t work, equipment wise, and so there’s been a bit of chopping and changing with what I’m doing.
Let’s take a look at what I’ve learned so far.
Nike Run Club review
I used the Nike Run Club app to create my training plan, purely because it was an app that I knew that had them, and it integrated with my Apple watch. Simplicity is what won here. The fact that I could customise the plan based on timeframe was great. They also have some awesome looking “guided runs” that I wanted to try in the future (also available to start on the watch). [...]