The weight issues continue and it’s making me emotional

In the interest of continuing to document my struggles with my weight I’m writing this post right in the middle of my emotional rollercoaster.

At some point in the future I’m going to want to revisit this moment. I’ll want to remember how I felt so helpless, then regrouped, and soldiered on again.

My journey the last few months

Last year I had made great strides with my weight and dropped 15kg. Since then I’ve hit a plateau that’s gone up and down in about a 3kg diameter. Not so bad…except that I hate being stalled. [...]  read more

Wednesday weigh-in: 3rd April

I have some good news to share today – hooray! And some not-great news, but definitely better-than-it-was news.

Here’s how my week went:

Weight:

Last week I weighed in at 86.8kg, this week I’m 85.8 – an even 1kg loss for the week. It could have been better, I didn’t have a great week food wise (will get into that soon), but it’s better than it has been.

I’m super happy with that result.

Binge eating

You guys, I was on a 9 DAY (!!!) streak, and then I broke it. I don’t think I binged in the traditional sense, it wasn’t a robotic “shove as much food in my mouth as I can” phase. The problem was I had enough bad food grazed over the course of the day that I decided I just wasn’t comfortable considering it a “successful” day. I didn’t want to reward myself for that behaviour. [...]  read more

Wednesday weigh-in – 27th March

It’s time for some accountability. Every Wednesday I’m going to try to do a quick blog post with an update on the increase or decrease of weight, and most importantly, how the binge eating is going. It’s a “weigh in” in the sense of weighing in on how things are going; not so much the weight being the most important thing (it’s not). And hey, alliteration is cool right?

As I confessed recently on my Facebook page I recently relapsed with my binge eating. It was creeping on me since before Christmas, and after another reality check this year I was back to old ways. [...]  read more

2017 vs 2018 – 15kg down: a photo comparison

As I write this post I’m sipping on wine, and reminding myself why I’m posting these photos. I’m almost chanting it to myself.

It’s all part of the journey. You’re just writing about the journey. It’s all part of the journey.

Thing is, it’s bloody hard to post this. I’m not proud of the before photo, or the after photo. I’m not where I want to be. But I’m proud of the difference.

Finding my photos

I was going through photos the other night, trying to put together a photo album of my son’s first 12 months on earth when I stumbled upon my before photos. I had taken them and promptly forgotten about them. [...]  read more

Recovering from Binge Eating: the plan

In my previous post I wrote about how I have been diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder (BED). Since then, it’s felt like a major weight has been lifted off.

Naming it and owning it meant I could move on.

Once I had worked through my emotional outpouring and tears, I took a deep breath and did what I do best. I began planning and writing.

I broke my recovery down into three major steps:

  • Diet/Nutrition
  • Exercise
  • Mental health

Admittedly, I hadn’t expected mental health to be a thing when I first wrote my “rock bottom” post. It was only once I realised I had an eating disorder that I realised there was a lot more work ahead of me. I think its presence on that list is a big nod to being a more long-term plan than just a “quick fix” weight loss plan. This is truly a lifestyle change for the better. [...]  read more