7 days binge free

I don’t have much time to write but I plan soon on catching you up on everything, promise!

I just wanted to take some time quickly though to celebrate a win.

I’ve been struggling. Really struggling. I contemplated seeing a therapist, and my GP directed me to a program I plan on writing more about too. Let’s just say for now it completely blew my mind, and I was able to start putting into place some habits that are helping me break free of the cycle and the rut I had been in.

And importantly, I’ve had some friends there right by my side supporting me. Where would I be without the support of my friends, really? I’m so lucky to have these support networks around me. [...]  read more

Cold temperatures and coughs

For the last few days the family and I have been enjoying some time away in wine country. Also known as Stanthorpe, it’s Queensland’s coldest town. I was worried about how cold it would be while we were there, but as it turned out we missed the massive Arctic winds blowing through the state! When we got home it was still quite cool, and was actually the same temperature as where we’d come from. Except that Stanthorpe was now hitting the negatives! Brr! I kinda wished we’d stayed a day to see it, but I’m also really grateful to be home and warm. [...]  read more

The weight issues continue and it’s making me emotional

In the interest of continuing to document my struggles with my weight I’m writing this post right in the middle of my emotional rollercoaster.

At some point in the future I’m going to want to revisit this moment. I’ll want to remember how I felt so helpless, then regrouped, and soldiered on again.

My journey the last few months

Last year I had made great strides with my weight and dropped 15kg. Since then I’ve hit a plateau that’s gone up and down in about a 3kg diameter. Not so bad…except that I hate being stalled.

The reasons why I’ve still at the same point are:

  • I stopped doing Lite n Easy – I started to become bored with the food and I needed a break (even though this was a sure-fire way for me to stay on a downwards trend)
  • I had a few relapses on Binge Eating…quite a few to be honest. I think at best I’ve lasted about 9 days between binges. I’m hard on myself on what I classify as a binge, but if there are feelings of regret after eating whatever it was, then in my eyes it’s a problem.
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    Wednesday weigh-in: 3rd April

    I have some good news to share today – hooray! And some not-great news, but definitely better-than-it-was news.

    Here’s how my week went:

    Weight:

    Last week I weighed in at 86.8kg, this week I’m 85.8 – an even 1kg loss for the week. It could have been better, I didn’t have a great week food wise (will get into that soon), but it’s better than it has been.

    I’m super happy with that result.

    Binge eating

    You guys, I was on a 9 DAY (!!!) streak, and then I broke it. I don’t think I binged in the traditional sense, it wasn’t a robotic “shove as much food in my mouth as I can” phase. The problem was I had enough bad food grazed over the course of the day that I decided I just wasn’t comfortable considering it a “successful” day. I didn’t want to reward myself for that behaviour.

    So the streak ended.

    As of today I’m back facing my second day of being binge-free. This week I’m also trying to cut down on my sugar intake as well. Now that I feel like I’m getting a little bit of a handle on my binging urges I want to focus on my food choices again.

    I’ve stopped with Lite n Easy – I got a bit sick of the same stuff and just needed a bit of variety and options again. This has definitely thrown up some challenges; if I’m not prepared with food I’m pretty hopeless at coming up with something on the spur of the moment.

    I’m going to try to get more prepared this coming week. I want to try and batch cook on the weekend (unlikely I’ll get time during the week), or worst case prepare my lunch the night before. Dinner wise I’m sticking with some healthy frozen meals still for the moment – it’s just easier when I’m working 10 hour days since I can have it in the office before I come home. That means home time is relax, spend time with the hubby or exercise.

    Exercise

    I’m finally back to it after injury and sickness! I managed to hurt my knee and my ankle, but they’re both feeling well enough to get back to it. I walked park run on the weekend with a friend, and last night spent a huge chunk of time on the treadmill.

    I’m only going to be running 3 times a week now (recommendation from my physio – my ankle/knee won’t be great at much more), but it will be a mix up of a speed run, a recovery run and a long run.

    In between that I’m going to try to get to the pool for some laps once a week, strength training at home and some cycling (not sure when I’ll fit this in but I really want to!). With the mix of sports it feels like I’m starting to train for a triathlon again! Maybe in the future *grin*

    I’ve reset my half marathon training plan with the new regime of 3 days a week. I’ve still got 18 weeks until the half, so plenty of time to get some distance back on the clock. Maybe as the weight drops I’ll be able to increase how often I run (since it will be easier on my limbs) but we’ll see.

    Mental Health

    I’m feeling good! This week I’ve woken early a couple of times to go for a walk on the treadmill and instead opted for a sleep in so that I get at least 6 – 7 hours of sleep. That’s really helped.

    I think I’ll only dedicate one or two days a week to getting up early instead of 3.30am every morning for a run. It will be on the two days during the working week that I have runs scheduled; the long run will always be on a weekend because it will take me longer to do.

    I’ve had some busy deadlines at work but I’ve coped well, and I’ve been making an effort to spend some more time with the husband (it’s a shame we both got sick this past fortnight – him with bronchitis, and me with a cold).

    Feeling strong, feeling healthy and feeling happy. It’s been a great week!

    Wednesday weigh-in – 27th March

    It’s time for some accountability. Every Wednesday I’m going to try to do a quick blog post with an update on the increase or decrease of weight, and most importantly, how the binge eating is going. It’s a “weigh in” in the sense of weighing in on how things are going; not so much the weight being the most important thing (it’s not). And hey, alliteration is cool right?

    As I confessed recently on my Facebook page I recently relapsed with my binge eating. It was creeping on me since before Christmas, and after another reality check this year I was back to old ways.

    The reset button was pressed. Again and again.

    It’s hard.

    But right now I’m on day 5 of not binge eating. Things are tracking well, and I’m actually feeling positive this time. Like I *want* to change, not that I *have* to change. By making myself accountable and honest to you all will help keep things going.

    So; update shots:

    My streaks app to keep track of how many days I can go without binge eating

    The weight…with no censoring. Eek.

    Nothing is more obvious of my struggles than the weight chart, but peaks and troughs right?

    It’s not about the final destination but the journey, and all those other cliches. Long story short I’m still finding my way around my triggers and maintaining good health.

    Here’s to a loss next week.