Yesterday my (ex)boyfriend and I broke up. You can read all about it here.
It's been a rough 24 hours for me. I have had a few teary moments, but I haven't broken down and bawled yet. I know as soon as I go and see a certain friend for a heart-to-heart I'm going to be a mess. She knows me so well, and knows the situation I have been in better than anyone. She has seen me at my absolute worst, and built me up to my best. A soul sister if you will, and when she reads this she will know it's her. So I guess I'm just waiting to see her to really let myself feel the vulnerability that I am hiding.
I have had a few chats with c, all of them civil. I know he is hurting just as much as me, and we are both wishing we could be in a very different situation. But alas here we find ourselves. Tomorrow we will get together for dinner and just have another chat to just finalise it all.
I'm currently staying in the same house until I find somewhere to move to, which is proving to be a challenge. I have applied to countless places, and most of the responses have been either “no dogs” or the room had been taken. I don't understand why people don't make it clear in their ads as to whether animals are permitted, it's so frustrating! However I have gone and met one couple, and while they were fantastic there was no fence for Missy and the cleanliness of the house left a lot to be desired. So that was a no.
I'm meeting with another guy Tuesday night, and hopefully that will got a lot better. It's further from work than I live with now (given I'm only 1km from work at the moment that was always going to be a big ask), and it's $50 a week more than I currently pay. There's a big benefit in that I'm only living with one person though, he's only 2 years older than me, has a dog and he's just gone through a breakup himself just before Christmas. On the phone we chatted easily as well so that was good. I just hope I get there and the house is clean, that he isn't weird or creepy, and I find exactly what I'm looking for.
Other than that, I have spent time with friends and family, and spent a lot of time at the beach with my dog. It's times like these when you have friends and family checking in on you, offering countless advice and a bed to sleep in that you remember who the ones are that are friends for life, and not just for the moment.
I love you all. This would have been so much harder without you. Thank you (and thwack you Bel!)
** Update **
In the 5mins following this post, I received two emails of two different offers for places. Both are about 25mins drive to work, but at least they're options right?