52 reasons why I love my husband

You guys, I’m going to state the obvious here.

Babies change relationships.

To be clear, neither of us have any regrets and we’re absolutely in love. But right now our lives are dedicated towards Luca, and not enough towards each other. I’ve let the affection drop, and I need to get that back. We need to prioritise time for each other at the end of the day, and I need to make sure that he knows how much I love and adore him.

This 52 in 52 task couldn’t have come at a better time. The task was to “write a list of 52 reasons why I love and am grateful for my husband”. [...]  read more

A weekend reconnecting with my husband

husband and baby on the beach

For a little while now, I’ve been feeling like I’m the world’s grumpiest woman. There was not one particular thing that would set me off, it was like everything and anything. My husband could justĀ breatheĀ the wrong way and I’d be annoyed. It must have been hell to live with me.

The thing is, I know there’s logical reasons behind it, like hormones and the lack of sleep. That said, I wouldn’t want to be around me if I had a choice!

Thankfully my husband is incredible, even if he does breathe wrong from time-to-time. [...]  read more

Guilt and failing at keeping everyone happy

When Mario and I planned our wedding I learned it’s not possible to keep everyone happy. In the 6 weeks since L has been born I’m learning the same lesson again.

Tonight I find myself sitting with a serious case of guilts and unease.

To my friends, my family and my husband:

I’m sorry.

I’m trying to respect your wishes, and your desires. I’m going to do the same for others. And in the course of that I’m going to piss some of you off.

Please know that none of it is intentional. [...]  read more

An update of recent events in my life

Next month I'm riding in a 100km bike ride in Melbourne, and this week my lycra jersey arrived! It's the first time I've ever owned a lycra top (I bought my first lycra pants last month when I bought my bike), and I have to say it doesn't feel as bad on as I had expected. Getting the top was pretty exciting, and made the prospect of doing this ride all the more real. Now I just need to make sure I'm getting some more serious bike time so that I'm prepared, and don't die from the sheer amount of time spent in the saddle (I expect to have a very sore bum). [...]  read more

When do I become ready?

My life recently has been filled with lots of great moments: fun with friends, fun with family, my dog, the ones that matter. I've also got some great moments coming up: I leave for Bali in just under 2 weeks, I booked flights to Malaysia with my sister next year, and also to NZ for a weekend away later this year. On a whole there is a lot to be excited about.

So why do I still spend time thinking about him?

I won't lie, it's been much easier since removing him on Facebook.

But when I allow myself time to think, I find myself thinking of the key moments together. Just the other night I visited the restaurant where we had our second date (on this occasion it was with friends) and I cried in public. Not sobbing, just some tears filled my eyes for a minute or two, and it didn't go unnoticed by my pals.  [...]  read more