Guilt and failing at keeping everyone happy

When Mario and I planned our wedding I learned it’s not possible to keep everyone happy. In the 6 weeks since L has been born I’m learning the same lesson again.

Tonight I find myself sitting with a serious case of guilts and unease.

To my friends, my family and my husband:

I’m sorry.

I’m trying to respect your wishes, and your desires. I’m going to do the same for others. And in the course of that I’m going to piss some of you off.

Please know that none of it is intentional. [...]  read more

8 times I wish I could punch myself

There’s a difference between regretting something, and just acknowledging you’re an idiot. I don’t have many regrets (none that spring to mind right now anyway). Yet there are times that I can admit I said/did things that were pretty dumb. Really dumb.

Let’s get real. I needed future me to come and give me a big slap in the face.

Ohhhhh how I had no idea.

1- When I complained about how “fat” I was in early pregnancy

I have this one on my blog even. It’s documented there for everyone to see! At the time everyone kept saying “just you wait”, but I was too caught up in my emotion at the time. It was just bloating you idiot-from-the-past! Now, I’m genuinely stuck with fatty back bums and fluid filled nether regions. My back looks like I have gills. My butt has its own post code, and could actually be a sufficient spot to store away another two babies. When I was complaining, I still fit my jeans back then! What an unappreciative idiot. [...]  read more

My name is Kelly and I’m an ambivert

A few weeks ago I was having a conversation with my training partner, Ness, when she pointed out a concept to me. The introverted extrovert. We had been discussing my need to find a quiet corner and hide. I was feeling extremely socially drained. A bit ironic really, when you consider I was describing this in a social environment. Since then I’d been researching it, and found that she was bang on – I’m an introverted extrovert. Or as Forbes explains it, an ambivert.

These people are called ambiverts, who have both introverted and extroverted tendencies. The direction ambiverts lean toward varies greatly, depending on the situation. [...]  read more

Saturday night integration

On Saturday night I went out with my housemate and her friends for dinner.

This was big for me, because my housemate seems like one of those beautiful people. You know the type: gorgeous, intelligent, seemingly so happy all the time. Going out with her friends meant a big deal to me. Not only was this pushing a boundary of the housemates rule (What if her friends didn't like me? What if I made a fool of myself? Would it make living at home awkward?) it was also meeting new people for the first time, which is always daunting. [...]  read more