Saturday night integration

On Saturday night I went out with my housemate and her friends for dinner.

This was big for me, because my housemate seems like one of those beautiful people. You know the type: gorgeous, intelligent, seemingly so happy all the time. Going out with her friends meant a big deal to me. Not only was this pushing a boundary of the housemates rule (What if her friends didn't like me? What if I made a fool of myself? Would it make living at home awkward?) it was also meeting new people for the first time, which is always daunting.

I needn't have worried.

I had a great time, we all chatted easily, and at the end of the night I had a newfound respect for myself.

I have heard people say it to me before, but I now finally see that I'm quite easy to get along with. I integrate well. I make friends easily. That's a great trait to have!

Realising that, and actually appreciating that about myself, I feel like I have taken an important step to building my self confidence. It makes the idea of going somewhere myself, unattached, without a partner, much less daunting. It means that I will be much less afraid of approaching people. And you know what? If they don't like me it's not cause I wasn't nice.

Moving to this house was truly what I needed. Step by step, I am slowly figuring out who I am and learning to appreciate myself. And I can't be disappointed with that.