A friend of mine is getting married in Bali in May, and I'm invited. Originally I discussed the possibility with C, then after we split with my mum, then a friend. My friend can't make it for budget reasons, and I don't think I could last that long with Mum without getting frustrated (I love you Mum).
So I'm going it alone.
I am seriously scared by this prospect. It means the savings that I had finally gotten started are going to be gone. It means that I won't have anywhere there beside me in a foreign country to figure things out with. At the end of the day, I will by myself. [...]