So tired…want to touch the pillow

For some reason trying to figure out a subject line for tonight’s post made me sing “so hot…want to touch the hiney” from Billy Madison. I’m not entirely sure why….but being tired will do that to you.

I’m knackered. Today was a 13 hour day (or 14 maybe?) doing some stuff for work. Don’t feel sympathy for me, I overcommitted myself. At least the end is in sight, and this time next week I’ll be past the first phase of this super crazy exciting project. It’s something I’ve wanted to do for a few years now and I’m so thrilled to see it doing as well as it has been. [...]  read more

Coffee and cookies

Confession – I just stress-ate a pile of cookies. I didn’t need them, they’ve made me feel like crap, but apparently I needed the emotional sugar high (or I’m premenstrual). Guess that strength I was feeling last night was short-lived.

I’m working silly hours again because I have a project going live next week, and I want it finished early. As in within 48 hours.

This weekend is Luca’s birthday weekend and the last thing I want to be doing is cramming in some work when I should be spending time with him. So, extensive computer time it is. And apparently stress eating. [...]  read more

The 75 Hardish Challenge (Updated!)

I’ve been reflecting on my 75 hard’ish challenge for a few days now, ever since I posted about whether to reset or not.

To understand the decision I made, and how I made it, it’s important you understand a few things about me.

What I’m good at:

  • Making lists (I’m even making one right now)
  • Making big crazy goals (my friend and I are known for #nochill)
  • Getting bored of something and not finishing it
  • Making excuses
  • Negotiating with myself (usually on how I can bend the rules)
  • Just letting things fade away (if you ignore it then it goes away right?)
  • Striving for a perfect 100% record

What I’m not good at:

  • Looking in the mirror
  • Facing reality
  • Forgiving myself
  • Seeing things through
  • Eating properly (I mean, having an eating disorder is a pretty obvious example)
  • Accepting imperfections, like a less than 100% perfect record

If this was any other challenge or goal I had set myself I would be giving up, and I’d just stop talking about it. The hope would be that everyone would forget. Or I would explain away the reasons on why I can’t finish it. The best outcome would be that I just make it easier for myself, forgetting the whole reason why I started it in the first place. [...]  read more

It’s all about poop

I’m in the middle of putting together a bigger post about how I feel about the challenge, but tonight didn’t really have time to do it, and didn’t want to be half-assed.

So instead, I want to talk about poop.

Is there such a thing as muscle memory for your butt?

Does anyone else find that when they’ve been away for a weekend that as soon as they get home they need to poop? It’s like your butt just holds on? Like, your home toilet is the palatial throne and no other toilet is good enough?
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Crazy busy days = reset?

Right now I’m tossing up between resetting the 75 days hard (which is what the original version does) or whether I just focus on getting through 75 days and seeing how good I can be.

‘Your opinions?

Today was another day where I realise that it’s hard to keep on track when life gets in the way.

I felt my old habits returning when I gave in a little for a couple of birthday parties we went to, and ended up eating two pieces of (very good) cake. Whoops.

Here’s how hectic my day was: [...]  read more