Half marathon training diary – 37 weeks to go

I’m 3 weeks into my training, 24 weeks left in my training plan and 37 weeks left until the half marathon. 

The first few weeks have been good to give me a bit of an introduction of what’s to come. I’ve also been able to get an idea of what works and doesn’t work, equipment wise, and so there’s been a bit of chopping and changing with what I’m doing. 

Let’s take a look at what I’ve learned so far.

Nike Run Club review

I used the Nike Run Club app to create my training plan, purely because it was an app that I knew that had them, and it integrated with my Apple watch. Simplicity is what won here. The fact that I could customise the plan based on timeframe was great. They also have some awesome looking “guided runs” that I wanted to try in the future (also available to start on the watch). [...]  read more

Solo parenting for the weekend

I’m very lucky to have a husband that’s quite hands on with our child, and I try not to take that for granted. On one hand it means that I’ve probably had quite the easy ride compared to some mothers. On the other it has some drawbacks in a “too many chefs in the kitchen” kind of way, but for the most part I do really appreciate him being there as much as he is.

Not to mention that he’s entitled to be, because…you know….father of the child and all.

On a separate note, recently it’s become apparent that to me that my husband needed some time away. There’s been a fair bit weighing on his mind, and there’s one thing that always resets the soul – camping. His dad had also been asking when they were next going to go camping together, so it was perfect. He’s always been too worried about going away though, feeling guilty about leaving Luca and I on our own.

I put my foot down and made him to choose a random date in the future. He would have a boys weekend with his father, and I was going to get a quality mother-son time weekend. Solo parent Kelsbells.

It was to last Friday night through to Sunday lunch.

I was nervous

Admittedly, I was really nervous about it. Since having Luca I’ve discovered I relish my little bit of “downtime” in the evenings when I have some time to myself. Most evenings I get some time to myself when my husband cooks and serves dinner for both himself and our son (I have my Lite ‘n’ Easy that I’m doing to help lost weight) and the evening bath time. Not to mention once the little guy is asleep.

With my husband gone, it was on me to do everything all day, so I would really only have a couple of hours to myself at bed time.

The prospect of being solely responsible was intimidating. What were we going to do together that whole time? What if I needed to pee and he was being clingy? What if he cried? What if…what if….what if? All the questions jumped out at me.

In the end we had a great weekend together

In the end it wasn’t that scary at all. We played together a lot at home, went out with Nana, we shopped and dipped our feet in my sister’s pool. My aunt visited from Brisbane, so we went out with her to Noosa for a drive, before heading home for dinner bath and bed.

Today we went for a long walk with a friend and enjoyed a coffee (babycino for the little guy) before he fell asleep in the pram for a bit.

My husband got home at lunch time, and was thrilled to see us. There were lots of cuddles, and the look on my son’s face when he saw his father was just beautiful.

I have what it takes

I was happy to reconfirm to myself that when the moment arises I have the ability to do whatever I need to get through. When he woke overnight I was there. When he woke up at the crack of dawn ready to party, I handled it. I cooked quality meals (better than I can do for myself), we played lots of games and he had some great naps (1.5hrs Saturday morning, which was lovely).

Sometimes having such a hands on husband has made me wonder if the only reason he is so involved is because I’m not able to do it myself.

Not a rational thought I’ll confess, but I’ll admit the idea was there.

My husband is hands on because he wants to be, not because he needs to be

For my husband, having time away helped break those strings that tied him to staying home with the two of us.

For his part, he never doubted I was capable and has never said anything of the sort to me. The idea that I wouldn’t be able to handle it was likely an idea that manifested itself in my mind and I just assumed that was his line of thinking. But for me, it still gave me the ability to say to him “see? I’ve got this, you don’t have to do everything. You can stop stressing now and think about yourself for a change”.

This weekend I gave myself a bit of a slap around the head and banished any negative thoughts. No one was questioning whether I could do it.

My husband is hands on because he wants to be, not because he needs to be.

He’s the type of person that likes to help people, and serve people. He’s a hands on father, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Luca is very lucky to have him. But he needs to make time for himself, and he needs to understand that it’s OK to do things without us.

I would struggle to restrict my own time to 2 hours a day

What I learned over the weekend is that without having my husband there, my life would dramatically change. I wouldn’t have the luxury of being selfish.

I learned that in order to be a single parent you have to be so unselfish.

Maybe I should rephrase that to be in order to be a good parent you need to be unselfish.

Being a solo parent your entire life is distorted. At the end of each day I got about 2 hours to myself max. The only way I would have more time is if I stayed up and sacrificed sleep in order to achieve goals.

For example, on Saturday night by the time I got the little guy down to sleep, cleaned up and managed to make my own dinner it was 8pm. I still had a run on my schedule for my half marathon training, so I had to wait until at least 9pm before jumping on the treadmill (running with food in my stomach makes me sick). I was in the middle of folding clothes, so by the time I actually made it on the treadmill it was 9.30pm. I was lucky that I just had a 10min easy “recovery” run on the schedule, so I didn’t bother with a warm up/cool down. I jumped on, did 10mins, showered and went straight to bed.

I can’t imagine my life being restricted to 2 hours a day. I would have to sacrifice so much.

Single parenting is hard

I have so many things I like to do – running, writing my blogs, reading, watching tv/movies, general mindless activities like playing games on my iPad, craft, my 52 list. It would just not be possible to do all of those without having my husband there helping to give me some time to myself.

I have a friend who is a single parent, and she does it tough. She works extremely hard in a job earning an income to support herself and two boys. Most nights she’s falling asleep in front of the computer trying to catch up on her work at night. She doesn’t have much support around her to give her breaks, or just encouragement in general. She forgets to eat. At the end of the day she’s so depleted of energy that she has zero motivation for food, and even then, she’s only thinking about what else is left on her list. If it’s not quick and easy then it’s not a priority because she has everyone else to think about. I now message her every day to remind her to eat dinner.

This, my friends, is someone who needs a break.

This friend is someone who whenever I need her she’s there. When I went through a hard break up and was struggling emotionally, she reminded me to go for a run. She was the one who got me into running in the first place. We have been friends for longer than I can remember. She is honest, raw, and amazing at surprising you with heartfelt gifts. She doesn’t ask anything in return.

But she deserves the world.

To my friend, I raise a toast to you. Your strength and determination to get through every day inspires me. Your boys don’t understand it yet, but they have an incredible role model in you. Your ability to still have a sense of humour and smile amazes me. You attempt to see the good in everyone, and it takes a lot before you finally walk away.

I just hope you understand how amazing you are. You need to treat yourself better, you’re worth it (I think L’Oreal did a marketing campaign on you – look it up). And I hope I can be there for you as much as you have been for me.

I’m here for you all

To all of the other single parents out there, I know I will never understand your daily struggles. To be honest, I hope I never do (that means something happened to my husband and our relationship).

I only got a taste of being a single parent this weekend, but I was blessed with a little man that made it easy. He was well behaved, he slept and we had places to go. That’s not going to happen all the time. I had a lucky break.

I don’t know what I can do to help. But what I extend to you all is a shoulder and an ear. I’m here for you to lean on and talk to. I want to be there for you. If it’s to meet you for coffee for adult conversation, or to be on the receiving end of text messages with venting, I’m here. If it’s to come and sit with you, I’ll do it. Tell me what you need.

When it gets hard, know that you have support around you.

And you know what? This blog went in a whole other direction that I didn’t expect. I only meant to write a bit of a recap and a “hey I did it!” Kind of post.

But I guess all of this just needed to be said.

And to my friend, one day those boys will understand how much you love them. Because…

Love is putting someone else’s needs before yours. Because some people are worth melting for.

And if I don’t get points for that quote then I will be extremely disappointed.

Bet you’re googling it now to make sure you’ve got the quote right. Or maybe not, maybe you already know the quote already (more likely).

Anyways….thanks for being there x

2019 Goal: Run a half marathon

You know those all-time bucket list items that you constantly think “one day I’ll do it”? Not like my 52 list, which is an everyday kind of list with the odd big ticket item. The list of the big scary things that you hope one day that you will do but you’re not ever sure you’ll actually make the effort to do it. Running a half marathon was in that list for me.

In 2019 I will be running a half marathon.

Hooooooly shit.

The Race

I signed up for the Sunshine Coast half marathon for a couple of reasons.

  • It’s on my home turf. That means I can run the track as part of my training, and on race day I don’t have to travel far at all.
  • I’ve run the course before. During 2018 I did a 5km event as part of a 52 with a friend, and loved it. The course that the half marathon takes isn’t that much further onwards (with more laps obviously).
  • It’s near the beach. I love to run by the water, it’s one of my “happy places”. So why not take the opportunity to run this new distance in one of my favourite spots in the world?
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    Luca Letter: 12 months

    Oh my boy, you have reached the big numeral uno, you’re 1! I am so proud of you and the little boy you have become. Your personality is amazing, you’re so much fun to be around, and you truly brighten the days of your father and I.

    Let’s check in on the last month.

    Updates for the month

    Your birthday parties

    Yeah…that’s right. Plural. You had multiple parties! The main reason for this is because of your Biz Nonna. We didn’t want to make her drive up to the Sunshine Coast, since she’s not comfortable in the car and it does wipe her out physically. It’s a big day. She’s made several special efforts for you, like when you were first born and again for your baptism.  [...]  read more

    Time for a catch up and some good news!

    Oh, hi world! I can’t believe it’s been over a month since I last wrote, although if you’ve liked my Facebook page you would have still seen the odd quick post here and there. It’s been a bit of a crazy month with lots going on, which I can’t wait to update you all about.

    So let’s dive in!

    Luca turned 1!!

    I can’t believe I’m the parent of a 1 year old! Where the heck did that time go?! We just spent the last two weekends celebrating, which seems a bit of overkill but I assure you it was necessary. We kicked things off with a party in Brisbane with my husband’s family so his 80yo biz nonna (great grandmother) wouldn’t need to drive 1.5hrs to where we live. This weekend we had a second party at our house with my family and our friends.

    It was a lot of fun, but we’re definitely a bit tired now! The little man partied hard and was so good being passed around to everyone. He got to play peek-a-boo with his cousin (second, third, something like that) which was one of the cutest things I’ve ever seen. He also went swimming in his new inflatable pool, and played with his pirate ship at his own pirate party!

    He did have a couple of episodes of throwing up unfortunately. Once on his Biz Nonna (she then had to go home to change before bingo) and once all over his daddy at midnight. We suspect its from another cold that’s coming through, poor little guy. He’s been running a fever for a few days too, nothing some painkillers can’t fix, but I hope whatever it is goes away soon!

    We’re blown away by the number of people that were able to make it to the events, and we thank you all. We were also stunned by the amazing gifts he received. He’s one very, very lucky little guy. I’m hoping that keeps him entertained for a while yet!

    I need to catch up on my Luca letters to conclude his first twelve months; I’ve got three left to go. From now on it will just a yearly catch up of everything he’s done; it’s been hard capturing every month and finding time to consistently post updates. But it’s been incredible to look back on our first year.

    I’m 10kg down since August

    I’ve been doing Lite n Easy as a way of breaking my binge eating disorder, and it’s been working really well. I’ve managed to drop 10kg, making it a total of 22.3kg since my son was born last year. I’m over halfway now, 17kg left to go until I reach my goal weight.

    (The light blue is my actual weight and the dark blue was my trend line)

    It’s not been smooth sailing the whole way, and these past two weekends with Luca’s birthday I’ve definitely fallen off the wagon. But I’ll be back on again tomorrow and my journey will continue. I never expected it would be easy, but I’m learning something new every step of the way.

    I want to do a dedicated post to everything I’ve learned so far, but for now here’s a quick update. I’ve been paying particular attention to when I want to binge. The goal is that I learn my triggers and find a way to overcome them. So far, I’ve realised I want to binge when:

    • I’m tired
    • I’m emotional – period, relationship stress
    • I’ve let myself get hungry

    The next phase is to find a much healthier way of dealing with those times. I’m not always going to be able to get a good night’s sleep, so I need a different approach to deal with fatigue. Emotional-wise I need to factor in some sort of physical activity – it’s been amazing for getting stress out for me in the past. Hungry-wise is just ensuring that I am eating regularly, and have easy, healthy snacks on hand if I don’t have time for some reason.

    Full steam ahead!

    A 52-in-52 update

    With just over two months left in the year I’m super excited that I only have 14 items remaining. I am very much feeling like this can be achieved, and I’m extremely motivated to get the list finished.

    It’s already time to start thinking about next year’s list!

    I’m going to try and include some tasks that involve Luca, some fun parent-baby time. Places to go, things to do etc. So if you have some suggestions I’d love to hear them. On the cheap would be preferable. My brain is already ticking over with some fun activities to do at home.

    Also, the optimist in me hopes that he might start sleeping through and my hubby and I could potentially leave him with his family and steal away for a sneaky adults-only weekend. That would be lovely! One can dream right?

    So that’s about it for me, a quick (long) recap of the last month! Hopefully this next month I’ll find more time to write consistently – I’ve still got so much to say!

    I’d love to hear how everyone else is going, and any big wins anyone else has had?