Lazy night in

Today at work was crazy busy, and mentally I am feeling a bit “blah”. To try and pick up my mood a bit I decided a lazy night in was in order.

I showered early and washed my hair, watched a movie and ate some junk food.

I have also just finished straightening my hair, so now I'm feeling just a little bit pretty.

I got the TV working in my bedroom, so managed a couple more idiot box hours watching some junk tv and the tennis.

And now?

It's bed time. I'm going to have a big long snooze, and while I wouldn't mind a sleep in I will be getting up at 6am again and taking my dog for a walk/run. While I would love a lazy morning, the enjoyment I get from spending time with my dog makes the early rise worth it. [...]  read more

Moving day

Today is the day that I move out of the house I shared with C and two others, and into a new place. There I will be sharing with a female around my age, and occasionally her two children aged 6 and 8 (she shares custody with her ex).

The room is huge with air con, and after tonight will be full of mismatched furniture. I will gradually replace it with nicer pieces that I am proud of, but at the moment my financial priorities lay elsewhere. I'm excited about having my own space again, so I will still make sure I have a room I can be proud of and not just a place to crash at the end of the day.

My bed needs to be pulled apart still in preparation, and I have to go through the cupboard in my former bedroom where I stored all my small random keepsakes. If the latter doesn't get done tonight that's no big deal, I can take my time. The aim for tonight's move is to get the big pieces moved over – bed, desk, dresser drawers, and recliner. My clothes and most of my other things are bagged up ready for relocation. The bonus of moving into a place where I have a fully furnished living room and kitchen means the amount of stuff I need to move will be minimal. It's nowhere near as complicated as a full house move! [...]  read more

I saw Weezer in Sydney

This weekend I went on a road trip to Sydney with my Mum. The plan (originally formed with C but after our recent relationship issues he decided not to come) was to come to see Weezer in concert. My mum stepped in when C said he wasn't coming, so we left straight after finishing work Friday night.

Drive-thru coffee stop

 

After 13 hours of driving we finally arrived, and as I had driven 12 of them I was shattered. All up I probably had about 20 – 40mins of sleep max during the trip, and once we reached my sister's place I probably had another 2 hours (after the concert I promptly passed out for a solid 8 hours). [...]  read more

Questions I’m asking myself

I wrote this at midnight last night to get thoughts out of my head with no intention of posting it. But it seems like now it's more relevant than ever, would love for advice or theories. Please. I'm desperate.

What is my purpose in life?

Why am I employed where I am? Is that where I see my future career?

What are my goals for this year? For five years? For 10?

Why do I find relationships difficult yet they last substantial amounts of time? Am I just persistent? Stubborn? Ignorant? Naive?

Because my relationship is difficult, does that mean it's not worth it? [...]  read more

So it’s not a break up…it’s a break

My, my….how confusing relationships can be.

The last two nights C and I have had some pretty deep conversations with each other. It's so clear just how much we both love and adore each other, and here we are.

I have to admit, writing how much he loves me is incredibly tough. I have such a high level of insecurity that despite him telling me not only a few hours ago just how much he is in love with me and doesn't want to lose me, I still think “yeah but what if”. Honestly, what does the boy have to do to prove it to me? No wonder he gets frustrated.  [...]  read more