Cold temperatures and coughs

For the last few days the family and I have been enjoying some time away in wine country. Also known as Stanthorpe, it’s Queensland’s coldest town. I was worried about how cold it would be while we were there, but as it turned out we missed the massive Arctic winds blowing through the state! When we got home it was still quite cool, and was actually the same temperature as where we’d come from. Except that Stanthorpe was now hitting the negatives! Brr! I kinda wished we’d stayed a day to see it, but I’m also really grateful to be home and warm. [...]  read more

Diagnosis: eating disorder

Hi, my name is Kelly and I have an Eating Disorder.

The big E.D.

See, here’s the thing. When I hit rock bottom a fortnight ago, I thought it was just a self image thing. A simple “I’m overweight and I need to fix it” kind of thing. And that’s still true, nothing has changed there. What I didn’t expect was to have to get smacked over the head with a truth bomb, eat a huge piece of humble pie, and confess some huge secrets that not even I had really clicked that I was hiding. Or at least, had buried so deep inside I couldn’t see them.

It’s been a fortnight now since my post, and like I promised, I’m sharing with everyone my path forward from here. So let’s get stuck into it, tackling first with the burning topic of my eating disorder.

I have “Binge Eating Disorder”

Also known as BD.

No, it’s not that I just eat too much, let’s get that out of the way right now. There’s so much more to it than that, and it would be unfair to describe it as such.

From the National Eating Disorder Collaboration site:
Binge eating disorder is characterised by:

  • Frequent episodes of binge eating involving the consumption of a large amount of food in a short period of time. Binge episodes will be accompanied by a loss of control over eating and the inability to stop the binge
  • A range of identifiable eating habits, including eating very quickly, eating without being hungry and continuing to eat to discomfort when already full
  • Feelings of guilt and shame about the amount of food consumed during a binge episode and the way it has been eaten. Binge eating often occurs at times of stress, anger, boredom or distress, and at these times may be a means of coping with challenging emotions
  • Secretive behaviours around food. Because of their feelings around food, people with binge eating disorder are often very secretive about their eating habits and choose to eat alone
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    Things I appreciate more after gastro

    Baby in a hospital cot

    We haven’t been on a great health streak here at home. I actually started wondering at some point if our house was just a cesspool of bacteria, but reminded myself that my son has just recently started daycare. The sorts of germs and bugs he would be exposed to there and bring home is surely the cause of our health woes.

    In the past few weeks we’ve had:

    • Viral infection (Luca and Mario)
    • Colds (all of us)
    • Chest infection (me)
    • Ear infection (me)
    • Gastro (Mario and I, while dealing with both the chest and ear infection on my part mind you)

    Right now Mario is still getting over what we thought was gastro, but seems to be a viral infection too, since it’s taken days for him to kick it where I was done after 24 hours.

    Gastro kicked my ass

    I was actually dehydrated to the point that I was hospitalised. After 3L of fluid was delivered via a drip overnight I returned home feeling much better. It still took another 24 hours before I was able to start eating properly. Luca came and stayed in the hospital with me and was so good. The nurses loved him! They had set me up with a cot for him (something out of a horror movie mind you) and when I put him in there so I could go to the toilet he looked like he was in a zoo cage!

    It was the most brutal gastro I think I’ve ever had. It started on Monday afternoon; my stomach felt off and all of a sudden my energy dipped in a dramatic way. I rang Mario and asked him to come home from work, and within minutes of him arriving and taking Luca I was projectile vomiting into the toilet. I was throwing up every 20mins or so, and shortly after I started Mario started up as well.

    We ended up having to call my sister in law to look after Luca, and eventually I went off to the hospital. We had called an ambulance since neither of us were in a state to drive, Luca was screaming and we didn’t know if anything was wrong with him. On top of that I didn’t want to confine my SIL in a car with us and run the risk of her copping it too. I started throwing up just after 1.30, and didn’t stop until after 7 (the ambulance officers gave me an anti-nausea tablet that was compatible with my antibiotics for the chest/ear infection and breastfeeding).

    I was so relieved when it was over.

    So, reflecting on that experience here’s a few things that I’m now extremely grateful for.

    Things I’m grateful for after having gastro

  • Solid poop – You don’t realise how good a normal poop is when you can’t have them. One of the nurses was telling me that another patient with gastro had described her poop as “a brown laser”. Best. Description. Ever.
  • Multi-tasking – After years in the office and juggling a lot of things I knew I was pretty decent with multi-tasking. But it’s not until you’re simultaneously on the toilet with “brown lasers” and throwing up in a bucket that you appreciate your ability to coordinate two things at once. My bathroom remained tidy that day.
  • Washing machines and dryers – Once I returned home I stripped all beds of their sheets to wash. Any blanket, bath mat, or towel that had been touched or was even just in the room where we were was ultimately sent through the wash. For a day I couldn’t see the floor of the laundry. But after nearly 2 full days of washing and drying I’m finally back on top of the washing pile. We’re in the middle of excavating and building a retaining wall so my outside line is unusable at the moment too.
  • Ambulances and hospital staff – normally I wouldn’t have called an ambulance, but I was just that sick. It turns out it was the right call. The officers told me later they knew straight away they were taking me to the hospital. I could barely stand, my blood pressure was 90/60 when they checked it and I was suffering pretty bad dehydration. My baby was screaming. My husband could barely move. I made the call, judge me as you will. Everyone we dealt with was amazing. The medics, that treated us with care and humour to lighten the situation. The staff at the hospital that did their best to make me comfortable and help with my son. They were wonderful.
  • Family – for my sister in law who dropped everything to come and help us out when she received a stressed phone call. My father who came to the hospital to try and hold Luca so I could receive treatment (as it was Luca didn’t want to be held by anyone but me, he could sense something was up), and for driving me home the following morning. I was so grateful for the support.
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    I’m officially a beginner yogi (completing the beginner’s yoga course)

    Yoga studio ios app

    This year one of my “52 in 52” goals was to complete the Beginner Essentials course on an iPhone app I downloaded. I’ve spoken in the past about my hip issues, tight from sitting down at work for too long and overdoing it on the exercise front. My theory was that yoga would help me combat that.

    It was so effective that my hip pain is completely gone.

    The app that I use is “Yoga Studio“, and from it’s own page it comes pretty highly regarded:

    ⁃ Recommended by: Mac|Life, 148Apps, iMore, Gizmodo, Fox, MSN, The Guardian, Huffington Post, and many more
    ⁃ Featured by Apple in “New and Noteworthy”, “What’s Hot” and the “Get in Shape” Essential App Collection
    ⁃ Voted runner-up in “Best App Ever” Awards 2013 & 2012 (Fitness category) [...]  read more

    Training journal: week 3

    Training journal week 3

    My plan to up the mileage this week didn’t come to fruition unfortunately. It wasn’t that I lost sight of my goal, it’s more that again I didn’t want to push my body too far. I wasn’t feeling 100% during the week unfortunately. You can see the details in my training journal below:

    Running

    I had a massage during the week, and on the Tuesday morning I pulled up pretty bruised. I didn’t let that stop me though, and had an enjoyable run with the MAF training.

    There was another good run on Saturday, timing myself for a 5km on the treadmill at the gym. I’m still trying to work out the MAF training indoors. My heart rate was too low for the run, but I’m worried about the speed. If I increase my cadence too much I’ll probably get a stitch; so I might try upping the incline a little so it’s less easy. I’ll report on how that goes next time.

    Swimming

    Wednesday was a swim (accidentally leaving my Watch running during a test break), but It was a good one. I’ve increased to 300m non-stop, and that’s feeling pretty good so I will up that soon to 400. I’m still no where near where I was once when I saw a life saver, but at this point I don’t want to swim fast, I’m swimming for distance. My endurance base in the pool is deplorable.

    Yoga

    There were also two yoga sessions during the week. Part of me thinks that I’m yoga sessions as an excuse for not doing anything more active on days when I’m feeling unwell. My training buddy, Ness, thinks I should do Bikram and then I’ll never say yoga is lazy ever again! Don’t get me wrong, I’m loving the yoga. I just need to make sure I don’t start to use that an excuse to not do anything active, or let my cardio training drop.

    Strength work

    I also did a Nike+ Training bench mark. I’m going to follow that training out of curiosity for strength training. It will be interesting to see how it goes. As I write this it’s been two days since the test, and my shoulders and hammies are sore. That bodes well for some intense sessions. I’ll be sure to report in my thoughts on the app as I go.

    Goal for the upcoming week

    This week should be more running and strength with maybe an active recovery session in the pool. Goal for the week: slightly increase the mileage on the runs. Even if it just cracks the 10km mark, I’ll be happy. My body is holding up really well, and no troubles with the hips.

    Here goes!